Extreme Makeover "heart edition"

This was the title of the sermon at church yesterday. I started listening and then I thought oh, I know someone who needs to hear this. Then I thought oh, yeah I do! During the prayer and reflection time, I prayed "Lord, what do you want me to do with this. Where am I most needing to apply this?" One of the things he laid on my heart was... blog about it. What? NO....I was filled with angst. I can't! I am not equipped. I know a little. I am ADD and I ramble( just when I wrote" I know a little" my mind starts singing" I know a little" by Lynard Skynard). I am not a scholar. BUT he knows that, silly me. He meant my perspective, what it meant for me and my life.
The sermon was about being a Christian in your heart. Living it. I get caught up in the appearance of Christianity. I put on my "Jesus coat" and think I am doing well. It's the image. I know all the right words...I am praying for you, God bless you, God is good,Praise the Lord etc. But I am being dishonest with myself. I need- WANT to grow in my relationship with Christ. I have prayed God let me desire you more , let me be more in love with you. And he has answered those prayers.I have on-going discussions with him most of the day but reading his word - I am a slacker, lazy...slazer as my friend calls it. I used to get out of bed, hit my knees and pray right then- Lord lead me today. Make me a blessing . I have fallen out of the habit. I do a devotion every day, but do I get in the Word daily... sometimes. I make my bed, brush my teeth, do dishes, and make meals every day but hearing God's word through his book, I don't always do it.
A wise woman said to me once, "Honey don't take your spiritual temperature every day. You will never measure up." But, I tend to use that as an excuse.
So, what this sermon meant for me is I want more... more of everything Jesus. I want to recognize that ugly sin when it shows up in my heart, and oh it will. Judging others, covetous heart, unclean lips... I want to fear God's opinion, not man's. I can hide my sin from man, but God sees my heart. He knows my thoughts.
I want to hear God's word, I want obey his word, and know the difference between his promptings and my desires/feelings. I want Christ's words in my mind, His love behind my actions, and His power to control my fleshly desires.
It is an ugly,mean world we live in. I want to do my best to make it better. Let's love on each other. Through Jesus Christ, we truly can.
If you don't know Jesus Christ as your personal savior, I urge to get to know him. It is simple. He wants to hear from you! He loves you!